I only cried twice today.

First, I spent the entire day on the internet. I'll be glad to go back to work tomorrow, because I am entering full on nut-job territory. I would iron one shirt and then run back to the rumor queen so see if there was anything new. I spent 30 minutes going back over old blog posts on my own blog and re-reading the comments. Man, you guys are nice. (And Trixie, you are commenter-supreme! If for some reason I'm not in the next batch, I fully expect those bunny slippers and chocolate)

My first cry was when I was re-reading everything on my agency's website. I would like to take a moment and tell you how much I love my agency! I love them. I always feel this way, but they have a new post up that truly reminds me that they do this for the babies. I really and truly believe with all my heart that their number one priority is to help orphans in China. Second up, they help families grow. I'm sure if I had read this at any other time, I would think, "Ahh...isn't that nice..." But in my current mental state, I was unable to control myself.

My second cry also dealt with my agency. I put it off as long as I could, but I gave in and called them today. I'm trying desperately not to be the crazy woman who calls all the time, so I space my calls and try like mad not to cry on the phone. Today I called the local office instead of the main one (spreading the love) and I asked about how match day would go. I know we said we'd take the call at home, but after talking to them, I really want to share it with them, too. One person in particular there has been amazing to me. So kind. And in the middle of my mental breakdown on the phone, she made me feel not only normal, but as if I was her biggest concern in the world. As soon as I hung up, I completely lost it. Snotty, nose-swelling sobbing.

Oh, and its not looking good for referrals this week. You never know, of course, but prepare yourself for another week of me going ever so slightly insane.