It's Really Happening!

Although we talk about Zoe daily, it still doesn't seem real most of the time. It's like when we first got married and it felt more like we were playing house. That's how this is. We're playing.

I think about how we will deal with issues like daycare, racism, and explaining her adoption. I think about how our lives will change. How will we possibly squeeze a baby into our lives? (Although my sister rightfully said it's more like squeezing the rest of your life around your baby.) But it still isn't real.

Now, however, I'm getting more and more moments of reality. It hits me.....I'm going to be a Mom...Me...A Mom. How can that possibly be? The other day it happened when Jeff told me his Mom has started buying Zoe clothes. My first thought was, "Wow, she really thinks we're going thru with this." What kind of thought is that? Of course we're going thru with it. And other people are preparing, too.

It's really happening.

And Zoe already has a pink jogging suit waiting for her in Florida.